On top of that, my feelings (for people) have been all over the place. One day, I want to have the courage to talk to a girl or two at uni, possibly see where that leads. Other days, I wish I could just switch off my feelings so that it didn't affect my mood. There are days where I have crushes on friends and imagine how it would go telling them and then being with them. Then there are days where my sexual feelings overtake everything. I won't go into detail about that.
Feelings are weird. Sometimes it's all just imagination, but sometimes the feelings really stick with you and make you picture all sorts of things. Especially when you see so many couples around you. They make you wish you had someone to cuddle with while watching movies. They make you wish you had someone to kiss, or even make out with. They make you wish you had someone who you could spoil, who you could take to nice dinners and movies and fun things like ten pin bowling or ice skating or something similar. Or do incredibly romantic things like driving somewhere away from city lights so that you can look up and see the stars. Or go to a drive in movie together. Or go to the beach together and just muck around, chase each other, have a tickle fight while you're laying down. They make you wish you had someone who would come along to family events or holidays. Someone who will be there with you through thick and thin. Someone you may end up marrying.
If only it were that easy to find someone.